Goals n' Stuff

 I think most people have a lot that they'd like to achieve in their life. The thing is after we grow up a bit and "reality" sets in we give up on the dreams we had and forget to recognize those that aren't so easily identified. The reason for this post is so that I can put together my list of dreams and goals. Every so often I do it. It changes as I do but I believe in striving for these goals even if they're inconsistent they help me to grow. The trouble is like the people I described earlier I don't often take the time to write them down or think about them. In fact I'd say that I have an aversion to the whole ordeal. I'm not sure whether it's because I'm afraid to realize just how far I am from "achieving" anything though honestly just living and breathing in these times is an honest to God achievement if you ask me. Maybe it's because I'm too tired and or caught up in my day to day to sit down and take a moment. Anyway this is that moment and here goes nothing. 

Lately I've really become interested in designing products. I think that product design is fascinating and as I've started a fledgling business with my friend Janet that's based largely around well designed products and great art it's really been something that's grown on me. Other things I'd like to do are get in more art shows. I should probably develop a concrete number of shows or something like that. Not so I can measure my success but rather so that I can have a concrete motivation. Also I would like to have more published work. I've got one article and a few pictures to my name which is nice but I'd like to expand on that. You know really see if it's something I'd like to pursue. I'd also like to have more singular planned images. I have portraits in mind but that could change. More immediately I'd like and art related 9-5 that pays at least 60k. I'm working on that at the moment and I think it will work out though it's become kind of frustrating. Trying to get such a job is best described as dating apps for jobs. A lot of perspective matches and seemingly more that just don't pan out for this reason or that. They ghost, don't respond, are busy, find someone else, or just decide they don't want to hire someone after all. It truly is annoying. I can't really say more than that. I mean it involves set up work also. Writing cover letters, adjusting resumes, sending follow up e-mails. If you can imagine it then it can be done and so far it has been fruitless. I've had one interview. Several delays and many no shows. If someone told me these businesses where just doing it to feel good about themselves I wouldn't whole heartedly disagree. 

Back on topic though. One of my goals though it may seem silly to a lot of people is to be making 100k per year by the time I'm 37. Right now I"m 34 so that may be a little ambitious but sometimes setting high goals is a good idea. I'll figure it out. Another goal of mine is to be a working fine artist. It doesn't have to be my 9-5 per say but I'd like to be selling some things. More importantly I want to be making work that I really like and am proud of consistently that makes people think. 

Really all of this is just an extension of my preexisting dreams. Just to be able to do whatever it is I'd like to do. It is just becoming a little more specific as time goes on. I'm fine with that and I think it's probably a natural progression. There's other things I'd like to do also though like making a few NFT's and starting a crypto currency because why not? Seems fun right. I don't care about the potential money. Sure it would be nice but it's not the motivation behind doing it rather it's just a possible perk. I just think it would be a novel thing to do. Along that line I'd still like to write a book at sometime. Not sure about what though. Definitely fiction though as I'm no Capote or Sontag. I don't think I can make reality as beautiful as they have and it seems like a lot to ask for someone currently writing haphazard blog posts off the top of his head. Anyway I'll spend more time thinking on this but I think the post has done its work and hope that maybe it motivates you to sit down and take a minute to think about what you'd like out of your life.

As for myself I'd much rather look boldly towards the future and compare my present life with where I'd like to go than look back years from now dismayed and sad because I was afraid to see how I measure up against my goals.